69th post.

The 69th post is supposed to be special. Cos of 69bro. But no, no 69 bro-ing for me today.
I turn to junk food when I'm upset.Thanks, Georgina, for giving me tissue to wipe my tears.

And a big thank you to everyone who told me that everything's going to be okay. :')

There's nothing that I can do now but hope and stuff. I want a candle, I want to see it burn:(

Tomorrow I'm going to have lunch with Lisa, Serena, Rebecca and Carolynn before choir. Then after choir, I'm going to Cathay with my mum, cousin, dad and brother to watch Michael Jackson's This Is It. I'm supposed to feel very excited and happy.

I wonder why it's so hard to believe yourself sometimes. Geez, this is all so.. shingz.
Well, how can everything be okay if you know that your chances of getting something you want so badly is so slim?

It's just me. I know this, but I cannot uh.. yknow.
Is it too early to make resolutions? No.

1. Be a little more apathetic
2. Trust myself more
3. Study harder
4. Save up more
5. Stop misplacing guitar picks/capo

Sigh. I feel upset and I want to slit my wrist and shit but I don't have the guts to do it. I'll never do it anyway. Like drugs, it is bad.